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tired of barely holding on,
to something that's already gone.
tired of being the one who's in this all alone.

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Friday, 10 July 2009 // 16:20

The mess of a dreamer with the nerve to adore you.

-Taylor Swift, Cold As You

i completely love that line. seriously, why the hell, out of 67 p6 NY GEP boys, i had to like this "popular" guy who's almost perfect and has a whole bunch of other girls who like/liked him.

even those that i know of exceed every other guy, and i don't get that much information so i bet there's a lot more.

and apparently it doesn't matter i that i don't like him just because he's oh-so-perfect and actually for who he actually is. it makes no freaking difference.

which reminds me, yesterday, yanzhe asked me to describe a list of boys. and yanzhe purposely put him there. so i said that he was double-sided. and when i was describing both sides, i realized my description for his "normal" side which included stuff like narcissistic irritating etc, was much shorter than my description for his "other" side. which i used to know.

anyway the point is i listed more good points than bad. that is so screwed, cos i dont even get to see any of his good points anymore.

and he kinda sorta talked to me twice today. the first time was cos he was late, as usual, and he was taking his temperature outside the classroom during the national anthem.

then when it ended and before the school song started, he showed his temperature to me cos i was the one nearest to the door and probably the only one who could see it. okay i know that isnt considered talking. interacting, whatever.

second time was during the QSE survey, cos he and leeyon were sitting behind me and yonghui. then me and yonghui finished quite fast cos obviously, we read the instructions and it said "answer the first thing that comes to your mind" or something like that.

then we were spacing out with nothing to do then suddenly he turned back and said "you all finished already?" yeah i know it wasnt actually a conversation...

oh and he said the 'forbidden n-word' to her. and she was really pissed at him.

and for some reason this post is really long... gah i needa try to redo my portfolio now.