but you came along and changed everything
Saturday, 18 July 2009 // 10:54
Feels like I'm falling and I'm lost in your eyes-Taylor Swift, Crazier
i know Crazier is a positive song, but that line can be implied really negatively. and i quote it in the negative way.
and yeah im listening to Joyce's blog playlist now cos it's nice and i cant be bothered to open iTunes or youtube or something.
wait, the song after Crazier is Fearless. CRAP.
cos Fearless is on the list of "songs that remind me of him cos he used to rant about them"... gah...
and i realised that not only songs/shows/movies remind me of him. even my Pentel Hybrid Technica does... cos of something that happen early this year. which i can bet he doesnt even remember.
why am i letting someone that doesnt give a shit about me influence me so much?!
and i had a nightmare this morning. is it still called a nightmare if it happens in the morning? anyway back to the topic, i knew it was in the morning cos i woke up from it.
those kind of, makes-you-jolt-up-from-your-sleep kind of nightmare. and that implies that it's really really scary. but it's not those kinda ghost or monsters and serial killers kinda scary. no gore, no violence. nothing, it wasnt even those kind of dreams where you're falling uncontrollably or you're lost in blankness or people fading away from you. just really scary in a different way altogether.
and im not gonna describe it to you.
and i had a nightmare this morning. is it still called a nightmare if it happens in the morning? anyway back to the topic, i knew it was in the morning cos i woke up from it.
those kind of, makes-you-jolt-up-from-your-sleep kind of nightmare. and that implies that it's really really scary. but it's not those kinda ghost or monsters and serial killers kinda scary. no gore, no violence. nothing, it wasnt even those kind of dreams where you're falling uncontrollably or you're lost in blankness or people fading away from you. just really scary in a different way altogether.
and im not gonna describe it to you.
and my cousin just told me my blog has a lot of 'fuck's. and that just reminded me of him again. cos he scolded me for using too many 'fuck's on my blog before...
GAHHH. why is the world so against me that even my very own cousin is trying to remind me of him?! it wasnt intentional and she probably doesnt know him but whatever. i think im getting... um what's that thing called? *goes check lynn's blog* oh yah, persecution complex...
gah im gonna do my long-overdue science papers now.