and it's just too hard to watch it all slowly fade away
Thursday, 3 September 2009 // 16:43
I'm a backup! I'm reserve parts! I don't even matter!
Why else wouldn't you tell me anything?
-Rune Michaels, Genesis Alpha -- Josh Seville [page 147]
i hate my prelim marks.
english... 176.5 yeah i know it's low. but it's actually my only subject that got above class average i think.
i know i didn't get high for compo cos it's really really unrealistic. and situational i forgotten about the freaking title even though i even left a empty line at the top. still, english is one of my not-so-good subjects.
chinese... 163. gah i'm damn pissed off at this one. i'm supposedly "a little little bit better than average" for my chinese. my paper completely sucked. plus my lowest-in-class for oral. i was never good at compo anyway so i'm not exactly pissed off at it.
hcl. didn't get back our compo yet, but i know it'll be low. paper 2 i got 47.5/60. fk, i wanted at least 50+. *see above reason*
maths. I'M THE FOURTH LOWEST IN CLASS AND THE ONLY PEOPLE I BEAT WERE PEOPLE WHO 'UNDER-PERFORMED'. so if those people did their usual standard i'd be the lowest-est in class. and the under-performed bit wasn't something i just assumed so i could go emo, ms mok was the one that said they under-performed. 82.5
science. not the lowest but one of the lower ones. 77.5, i always sucked at science, but still.
i didn't get a single A*/high A. that's so screwed. gahhh.
and since i'm in a ranting mood,
I'M, SO, SHORT. either that or the boys in my class are growing too fast.
and i'm not just talking about the height itself. so i should rephrase it as "I'M, GROWING, SO, SLOWLY."
example 1- justin. beginning of the year, the first height-and-weight, he was only like what, 2cm taller than me. or maybe 3cm.
now he's freaking 159cm! if i didn't remember wrongly. that's like 6 freaking cm taller.
example 2- darryl. i think i was like, 0.5 cm taller than him/around same height earlier this year. and now he's freaking 157.
but i shall be in denial. justin's is cos Ms Yang measured his body+hair. his hair is at least, 3cm? as what lynn calls it, his hair is like a pineapple. *ignores the fact that he had just cut his hair recently for PSLE oral*
darryl's is cos, idk, he's a teacher's pet. but really, he is. of practically every single teacher.
okay i should stop ranting now.