I wake up, put my poker face on;
Thursday, 28 October 2010 // 22:01
I wake up and bandage these scars
The scars on my heart, that prove that I'm still alive
-Kris Allen, Lifetime
Huh, I just realized you don't exactly bandage scars. Huhh. Anyway.
OHMYFREAKINGGOSH. Did you know that I have the same favourite colours as Kris Allen. Hahah yayy blue and grey<3
Yeah, because Divya got pissed at me because I knew Justin Bieber's favourite colour is purple, but didn't know anyone else's. I mean, it's only because he makes it really obvious. Like, his album cover. And he tweets about it I think. And he like, wears a lot of purple.
Yes, purple.
Anyway, yes, I know blue is actually a super popular favourite colour. Ooh blue's Cory Monteith's favourite. Okay now I feel kinda cliche-y for liking blue. But yeah, not that many people like grey? Like, everyone thinks it's a nice colour but they don't favourite it. Yeah.
Huh, did you know JMac's favourite colour, is orange. Mmhmm. And David A's favourite colours are citrus-y colours such as green, yellow and orange, and purple hahahah.
Ohkayy I should start posting about, stuff.
The last time I posted was on Friday. Nothing happened during the weekends. Went to Jodi's house on Monday for a NYSB thinga.
Okay the past few days has just been getting back marks. I did, my-standard-ish. Which is like, below average.
Hmm, Language Arts. I did okay I guess. 24/30 for compo, and 22/30 for lit. response. Considering the fact I didn't exactly finish my lit. response, yeahh. Compre 19/30, omggg gah summary 14.5/20. At first when I saw my compre marks I was damn happy 'cause our compres are usually upon 20. And then, yeah, bleh. But it's still okay I guess. LA's like the only subject that we got our entire grade for, and I'm getting an A2 overall. And I'm not going to complain.
Chinese. I got, 45/70 for my compo, I think. Yeah, which is lower than my usual, considering the fact that they didn't deduct marks for wrong words. For usual compos I usually get like, 51ish. Then I minus 5 for having wayy too many wrong words. Blehh I deproved. Wait deproved isn't even a word. Then 15/20 for situational writing, which is averagey? I don't really mind. Gahhhh screw my paper2 man. I got below 80, upon 110. Fuck it. I think I'm getting a B3 for overall?
Math. I got 41/50 for paper2 and I screwed up my paper1. And it completely ruined my A1. Screw it screw screw it. Math's supposed to be that subject that I don't even have to worry about not doing well. I mean, I'm not even good at Math, but it's straightforward, and relatively simpler to score for. Especially after like, term1-ish, when I stopped failing my quizzes and actually got like, okayish scores. And SIAs are just freaking easy please. Although I keep screwing up worksheets, but yeah, my Math was my perfect A1 kay. Now it's all just fucked up and the best I can get's an A2.
Science. Oh this is so ironic. I think I might actually be able to get A1 for Science. 'Cause I actually score almost full marks for most assignments except a few Bio. And a teeny little bit of Physics. And for my paper, I got 19 for Chem, and 15 for both Physics and Bio. And 34(wth I forgot) upon 40 for MCQ. So I'm getting a 83 for my paper. Ehh why does it sound like I did well for Chem when I actually almost-failed my Chem block test, this doesn't make sense. But anyway, yeah, I think I'm getting an A1. I hope. Omgg if I don't get A1 for Science I wouldn't have a single A1, then I can just, I don't even knoww.
Humanities. Gah I screwed up History. Kay I think Bijou would be reading this, and yeah, honestly no offense. Just that my mark isn't that much better anyway. Mm. Shall not talk about it. I really should've mugged more though, then I could've scored a lot better for SectionA which is all the easy memorizable stuff. Meh I think I did worse for that section. Then Geog. OMA. I got a 35/50. Yes, that's not even that good, but I completely fail at Geog, so it's pretty awesome for me.
Yeah, so A2+A2+B3+A2+A1+B3 / 6 = 2.1666...
Screw it, now I can't get whatever-I-would've-asked-my-dad-for-if-I'd-gotten-onepointsomething. Like an iNano.
I really cannot fucking believe my Math okay. And bleh, my Chinese dropped so much since last year.
Screw it.
Kay, I should stop ranting. Let's talk about happy stuff! Like how Daphne, Bijou, Divya, XiMin, SeeMin, Jessie and I went to KAP, yesterday! And we ate at Island Creamery. Until we finished our ice-cream way too fast and felt bad after staying there for too long and people started coming in. Then we went to Mc's and ate fries way too fast again. Oh and Divya bought a super overpriced Strawberry Banana, thingie. I forgot what they called it. Smoothie? Yeah, strawberries ftw.
Then we went to prank-call random people 'cause we're immature like that. NgXin actually believed this whole Taylor Swift going for fail plastic surgery thing. And most people were just super confused, like Joyce and Rebecca. And some people just couldn't hear at all. Hahah we fail.
Then everyone left except for Daphne Bijou and XiMin. Then we went back to Mc's and spent more money on fries and played Truth or Dare. Without the Dare. Hahah whee.
Oh and I had training on Tuesday and today? Mm, I think I actually fail a little less now? And my coach is a little less pissy. And I think I sunburned my nose, wth.
Hmm, what else. Ohyeah that HAST test thinga. What does it stand for, Higher Ability Selection Test? Yeah, they made everyone who got in though Academic DSA take it. Idk, I screwed up the whole thing but don't really care.
And omgg I shall sleep soon even though it's only 11'15pm. Idk, I'm tired kay!
Oh, Kris Allen did a Gleecap, even though he doesn't watch Glee. Because like, his sort-of-friend who's this interviewer who's this sort-of fanboy of him, did a Gleecap in the form of a song. And so he appeared and sang for like, half a minute hahah what the hill.
OMA, this reminds me, I didn't even post about watching Chuck and Glee yesterday. They were the Halloween episodes? Chuck's was mostly about his mum, more than the mission. His mum, who ditched his family when he was 9, then came back now and shot him in the heart, and when he didn't die, she kidnapped him.
Hahahahah I've been telling that to people all day to freak them out. It actually isn't that bad. I'm just lazy to explain it. Oh then afterwards his girlfriend kidnaps his mum, but, like, by the book. Hahah Chuck leads a screwed-up life.
Glee was, they did this horror musical because Will's trying to win Emma back. It was nice-ish I guess. Nothing really post-worthy. Except that Cory Monteith's character's role in the musical required him to do one of the scenes in his underwear and he got insecure thinking he was fat. Hahah then afterwards he tried getting over it by walking through the hallways in his costume, aka, just his underwear.
And Sam is just, crazy. He's like buff and has abs and actually follows this super strict diet, and he thinks he's fat. Like those anorexic girls hahah it's damn funny.
And mm, I think that's all. I don't think I have anything left to post, I think.
5. Write a letter to someone you’ve never met.
Dear random-person-slash-people-at-stupid-ABC-which-is-a-retarded-name-anyway-who-cancelled-FlashForward,
Hellos. I just wanted to let you know that you're an idiot. Honestly? The ratings weren't even bad dude. Now you've just pissed off a lot of people. And lost a hell lot of money.
Yours Sincerely,
QianYu.
Hahah idk why I wrote that. I think it's 'cause I was talking about this question with Bijou several days ago when I was still pissed off about FlashForward being able to make so much money from advertising but still somehow managed to get cancelled. And then I can't be bothered to think of someone else.
6. Write a letter to the person you’re closest to.
Dear me,
You screwed up your Math, just so you know. I'm so freaking disappointed in you. You've already screwed up your whole year and you just had to go screw up the only easy subject's EOYs. Good for you man. Oh you just couldn't have mugged more for History and get something at least above a pathetic 60%? And how the fuck did your Chinese drop so much. Now your grades are going to suck and you'll just be this dumb person struggling in Nanyang because she doesn't belong.
Congrats. Stop messing everything up.
Love,
Me
Because I couldn't decide on who I'm closest to. And I'm fine, really, I'm not going emo or anything. Just that I can't think about much except for EOYs. Yeah, I actually know that that's damn negative, I don't actually mean it. As in, I mean it, but probably in a less harsh way.
7. What was on your last shopping list?
I don't have shopping lists. The last time I bought something that wasn't food was... Another pathetic papery nametag because I lost my other one. Does a note saying "NAMETAG!" displayed on standby on my phone count as a shopping list? It does, I guess. So yeah, nametag.
8. If you could have anyone next to you right now, who would it be and why?
Right now? Nobody, 'cause I wanna go to sleep soon. Hmm. Really, nobody, because I'm damn sleepy and I'm in my room and it'd just be creepy if someone was next to me right now. But yeah, if it wasn't right now, and at this place, it'd probably be some famous person. I don't know which one actually. Omgg that's so vague and a bit duh. I fail at this.
9. How do you feel about yourself?
Disappointed, mostly, for now. For a lot of things besides Math actually. Like, I'm just this random face in the crowd. I'm not really smart, I have no musical talent, can't really play sports because yeah I fail at softball, and I just have no skills at all. That's why I'm so scared of growing up because I know I won't really end up anywhere due to my lack of, everything.
10. How do you react if the person next to you is crying?
Omg, I really don't know what to do kay. LIke, even if you're close to me, I'm just really awkward and won't know what to say to make people feel better. So I just stay there like an idiot. Sorry?