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Friday, 1 April 2011 // 23:42
We're standing in a light that won't fade, Tomorrow's coming but this won't change
-The Wanted, Gold Forever
Must, resist, temptation, to, post, about, The, Wanted.
SO MY BLOCK TESTS ENDED TODAY YAYYY.
The Geog paper was kinda easy, but I made a bunch of stupid mistakes. Well, at least I spelled Richter correctly?
Yesterday's Chinese paper was, bad for me. For the compo, I sort of went off-topic, and I only wrote like, 2 pages, which is really really short. Like, the question I picked was to write about a happy day (hahah the question sounds retarded) but the amount I wrote of the day's actual events were literally one paragraph. All the others were crapp. And for letter writing my structure was screwed and I didn't have enough points 'cause I had no idea what to write!
Gahhhh I think I'm going to get like B4 for Chinese this year. Honestly, I'm not like overreacting or anything. I was thinking I was doing quite well this year, but Chinese is going to pull my whole MSG up. As in, the bad-up. Yeah.
Hmm, what else is there to post about The Wanted OM! AHHHH I'm damn scared I can't believe nationals are in a week omggggg. Like, we haven't painted/put together our backdrop. Our machine's only half-done I'm damn fucking scared that it's not going to work and then we're fucked. And, some of our props are not finished. And we're very unrehearsed O.M.G.
WE'RE GONNA DIE SCREW THIS DD:
And our spon omg! We're not even like, super good and we haven't practiced in awhile and we have never ever done a single Hands-On question omg -stabs self-
Okay I shall stop freaking out about OM I need to save all my freaking out energy for Nathan Sykes. I shall calm down. WE CAN DO THIS JY!
Hmm, what else can I post about. Ohh today's Music lesson was really, cool. Idk why it just really was. Aish thinking about Music today just somehows makes me sad. So now I'm like stuck between this weird depression and my TheWanted-high. Ugh I might implode soon.
And I should sleep early today. For the whole of this week my sleeping patterns were damn screwed. Like, I'd come home at around 4+ to 6+, I'll bathe, use the comp for awhile, then go to sleep until like 11. Then I wake up, and mug (and stalk Nathan Sykes during my study breaks) till 2+, then go to sleep again. Sometimes I don't even eat dinner. But at least I'm getting enough hours of sleep. Even though it's divided 4-4. But seriously, 8 hours is more than what I usually get.
And today while doing OM I was kneeling down/squatting etc to cut up the cardboard. And once I stand up my head would start spinning and and there'd be a lot of bright spots in my vision for awhile. Ahh I used to get them when I sat down for too long and suddenly got up. But today I wasn't even stationary for that long. If that happens again tomorrow during training I'm gonna die mehh. It better just be some weird aftermath of my screwed sleeping habit which would go away once I sleep properly tonight.
Okay I've run out of things that are actually about me to post about so yeahh, I'll try not to fangirl too much about Nathan Sykes. But he's so kewtt.
Uh, what did I want to post about. Oh right, Kris Allen. Ah, I feel so disappointed with myself for posting so little about him recently. But, I mean, it's not like he has anything much going on. He's just writing and writing and writing. So there isn't much to post about anyway.
Back to the point, he was trending worldwide on Twitter today because he appeared for 3seconds on the new episode of American Idol yayy hahah. He's so awesome man. But seriously, (not so)recently he changed his hairstyle from the sexy spiky-ish thing to some weird, flat thing IDK man.
Ohh and he shares the same birthday as Rebecca Black wthh.
Hahah just watch it it's damn freaking funny. I think she's quite a nice person actually, like if you watch her interviews and stuff. Just that the lyrics (which she didn't write) are damn ridiculous and her voice is kinda, irritating. Like, it's good because she has good pitch and stuff like that but it just sounds very, yeah you guys get it.
And I think anyone who would make fun of themselves deserves respect man. Or maybe it's just a desperate publicity stunt so that people would respect her, so she makes more moneh. Yeah, I shall be nice and believe it's the former.
Which reminds me of Justin Bieber. Like, he did this BestBuy ad that was aired during Superbowl which is watched by like, 111million people(really! it says so on Wiki) and this old guy says "What the fuck's a Bieber?", he disguised himself as some other creepy old man and say "I don't know, kinda looks like a girl to me."
Aish just watch it.
Which reminds me of that really sad quote I read on Tumblr the other day. Wait let me go find it.
So many girls are saying they are in love with me. But they are in love with what I seem to be. That boy, that never cares about hate, that boy that's always happy, always smiling. But they don't know how much pain this hate gives me, how hard it is sometimes to not break down in tears.
-Justin Bieber
D: He really doesn't deserve all that hate.
Ohh and Gwen wants to watch Never Say Never on the opening day =.= Seriously, I do not get why she wants to like, die amongst all the crazy fangirls. I mean, we're not even hardcore fans there's no point going on the opening day. Plus it's on a Thursday so I have training):
Which reminds me, when I was playing the Gold Forever music video while doing OM today, NgXin suddenly squealed because she thinks that Nathan Sykes looks like a less-hot version of Justin Bieber =.=
Like, seriously, how can you compare Nathan Sykes to Justin Bieber! And still say he's inferior, seriouslyyy. I mean, I like Justin Bieber and think he's relatively good-looking and all, but seriously, Nathan Sykes is just so much more, kewt/hot ughhhh! -resists posting photos to prove my point-
Ohh and I've managed to somehow change all my friends' opinions of him for the better! Gwen always thought he was damn cute yayy, Daphne saw his photo on Gwen's phone/my Tumblr and now thinks he's quite -somethingpositive-, Divya thinks he's okay except his weird face shape/nose or something stoopid like that, and yeah, as mentioned above, NgXin now thinks that he looks like an older-by-one-year, less-hot version of Justin Bieber, which is a compliment, I guess.
Okay I shall stop posting about Nathan Sykes now.
OHWAIT can I just post about one thing. He loves to do the suggestive eyebrow-raise idk why hahah! Like, in the day before's WantedWednesday video he did like, 10 eyebrow-raises. And then he started his part by going "Soo! -eyebrow raise- We're in Manchester. -pedogrin- Hehhhhhhh." Hahah that's so cute. And NgXin says he does the eyebrow raise really well hahah yay!
Okay I shall post about The Wanted now. There's a diff between posting about The Wanted and Nathan Sykes okay. I don't post enough about The Wanted, I should try to not be so biased towards Nathan Sykesss.
Okay so The Wanted's tour seems damn awesome through Tumblr omg. And I think they really make a big effort connecting with their fans. Like, they reply quite a bit a fans through Twitter, and they try to interact with them as much as they can during concerts, and they have a lot of meet&greets and they're very sweet and grateful to their fans. Like, they don't act like divas just because they're famous so they don't mind like, spending a lot of time thanking and talking to their fans and stuff like that.
Because like, at first when they just formed they didn't get much support from radio stations because they weren't from reality TV, which is where most British musicians come from I think. So they had to work very hard and go around everywhere doing tours at schools and stuff, to gain fans and more support. So they're very thankful to their fans for their success and stuff, and the fans actually sort of feel a personal connection to them? Yeah. I think, at least based on what the people on Tumblr are posting.
Soo, now that you've heard the inspiring story of The Wanted, you'll like them right! They're so much more than the usual manufactured, flat, one-sided boybands with mediocre vocals singing impersonal crafted-perfectly-to-be-chart-toppers songs and 'swoon-worthy' looks. They're actually extremely real and personal people with genuine talent okay.
Like, they actually write some of their songs themselves. Like, one third of their album. And they can actually sing well, and they can actually play instruments. Their beauty is totally not only skin-deep.
Aish now this sounds offensive to other boybands, but it's not supposed to be! Uhh, I sort of like JLS? Their songs are quite nice?
I'm gonna end off this post right now because real life just kicked in, and ugh it's bad stuff. Why does there have to be so much dramaaaaa.
TheWanted<3
Oh oh one last thing. If I didn't remember wrongly they were in Singapore earlier this year, for this super epic cool thing. Like, they had a showcase at Sentosa or something like that, and they also had this damn awesome competition where you basically write in and say why you're the biggest TheWanted fan. If you win, they go to your freaking house to perform for you and 9 other friends, and the radio station (I forgot if it was 913/987) brings refreshments and broadcasts the radio show from your living room.
Ugh that would've been so awesome, even though I didn't like them then. I didn't dislike them, I just didn't feel anything? Like, I kept thinking "Ooh this is super cool I think it'd be damn awesome for the person who wins. Even though I don't really like them." And I think the winner lives in Bukit Batok omgg.
Sigh.
when the storm feels like it could blow you out;
Friday, 1 April 2011 // 23:42
We're standing in a light that won't fade, Tomorrow's coming but this won't change
-The Wanted, Gold Forever
Must, resist, temptation, to, post, about, The, Wanted.
SO MY BLOCK TESTS ENDED TODAY YAYYY.
The Geog paper was kinda easy, but I made a bunch of stupid mistakes. Well, at least I spelled Richter correctly?
Yesterday's Chinese paper was, bad for me. For the compo, I sort of went off-topic, and I only wrote like, 2 pages, which is really really short. Like, the question I picked was to write about a happy day (hahah the question sounds retarded) but the amount I wrote of the day's actual events were literally one paragraph. All the others were crapp. And for letter writing my structure was screwed and I didn't have enough points 'cause I had no idea what to write!
Gahhhh I think I'm going to get like B4 for Chinese this year. Honestly, I'm not like overreacting or anything. I was thinking I was doing quite well this year, but Chinese is going to pull my whole MSG up. As in, the bad-up. Yeah.
Hmm, what else is there to post about The Wanted OM! AHHHH I'm damn scared I can't believe nationals are in a week omggggg. Like, we haven't painted/put together our backdrop. Our machine's only half-done I'm damn fucking scared that it's not going to work and then we're fucked. And, some of our props are not finished. And we're very unrehearsed O.M.G.
WE'RE GONNA DIE SCREW THIS DD:
And our spon omg! We're not even like, super good and we haven't practiced in awhile and we have never ever done a single Hands-On question omg -stabs self-
Okay I shall stop freaking out about OM I need to save all my freaking out energy for Nathan Sykes. I shall calm down. WE CAN DO THIS JY!
Hmm, what else can I post about. Ohh today's Music lesson was really, cool. Idk why it just really was. Aish thinking about Music today just somehows makes me sad. So now I'm like stuck between this weird depression and my TheWanted-high. Ugh I might implode soon.
And I should sleep early today. For the whole of this week my sleeping patterns were damn screwed. Like, I'd come home at around 4+ to 6+, I'll bathe, use the comp for awhile, then go to sleep until like 11. Then I wake up, and mug (and stalk Nathan Sykes during my study breaks) till 2+, then go to sleep again. Sometimes I don't even eat dinner. But at least I'm getting enough hours of sleep. Even though it's divided 4-4. But seriously, 8 hours is more than what I usually get.
And today while doing OM I was kneeling down/squatting etc to cut up the cardboard. And once I stand up my head would start spinning and and there'd be a lot of bright spots in my vision for awhile. Ahh I used to get them when I sat down for too long and suddenly got up. But today I wasn't even stationary for that long. If that happens again tomorrow during training I'm gonna die mehh. It better just be some weird aftermath of my screwed sleeping habit which would go away once I sleep properly tonight.
Okay I've run out of things that are actually about me to post about so yeahh, I'll try not to fangirl too much about Nathan Sykes. But he's so kewtt.
Uh, what did I want to post about. Oh right, Kris Allen. Ah, I feel so disappointed with myself for posting so little about him recently. But, I mean, it's not like he has anything much going on. He's just writing and writing and writing. So there isn't much to post about anyway.
Back to the point, he was trending worldwide on Twitter today because he appeared for 3seconds on the new episode of American Idol yayy hahah. He's so awesome man. But seriously, (not so)recently he changed his hairstyle from the sexy spiky-ish thing to some weird, flat thing IDK man.
Ohh and he shares the same birthday as Rebecca Black wthh.
Hahah just watch it it's damn freaking funny. I think she's quite a nice person actually, like if you watch her interviews and stuff. Just that the lyrics (which she didn't write) are damn ridiculous and her voice is kinda, irritating. Like, it's good because she has good pitch and stuff like that but it just sounds very, yeah you guys get it.
And I think anyone who would make fun of themselves deserves respect man. Or maybe it's just a desperate publicity stunt so that people would respect her, so she makes more moneh. Yeah, I shall be nice and believe it's the former.
Which reminds me of Justin Bieber. Like, he did this BestBuy ad that was aired during Superbowl which is watched by like, 111million people(really! it says so on Wiki) and this old guy says "What the fuck's a Bieber?", he disguised himself as some other creepy old man and say "I don't know, kinda looks like a girl to me."
Aish just watch it.
Which reminds me of that really sad quote I read on Tumblr the other day. Wait let me go find it.
So many girls are saying they are in love with me. But they are in love with what I seem to be. That boy, that never cares about hate, that boy that's always happy, always smiling. But they don't know how much pain this hate gives me, how hard it is sometimes to not break down in tears.
-Justin Bieber
D: He really doesn't deserve all that hate.
Ohh and Gwen wants to watch Never Say Never on the opening day =.= Seriously, I do not get why she wants to like, die amongst all the crazy fangirls. I mean, we're not even hardcore fans there's no point going on the opening day. Plus it's on a Thursday so I have training):
Which reminds me, when I was playing the Gold Forever music video while doing OM today, NgXin suddenly squealed because she thinks that Nathan Sykes looks like a less-hot version of Justin Bieber =.=
Like, seriously, how can you compare Nathan Sykes to Justin Bieber! And still say he's inferior, seriouslyyy. I mean, I like Justin Bieber and think he's relatively good-looking and all, but seriously, Nathan Sykes is just so much more, kewt/hot ughhhh! -resists posting photos to prove my point-
Ohh and I've managed to somehow change all my friends' opinions of him for the better! Gwen always thought he was damn cute yayy, Daphne saw his photo on Gwen's phone/my Tumblr and now thinks he's quite -somethingpositive-, Divya thinks he's okay except his weird face shape/nose or something stoopid like that, and yeah, as mentioned above, NgXin now thinks that he looks like an older-by-one-year, less-hot version of Justin Bieber, which is a compliment, I guess.
Okay I shall stop posting about Nathan Sykes now.
OHWAIT can I just post about one thing. He loves to do the suggestive eyebrow-raise idk why hahah! Like, in the day before's WantedWednesday video he did like, 10 eyebrow-raises. And then he started his part by going "Soo! -eyebrow raise- We're in Manchester. -pedogrin- Hehhhhhhh." Hahah that's so cute. And NgXin says he does the eyebrow raise really well hahah yay!
Okay I shall post about The Wanted now. There's a diff between posting about The Wanted and Nathan Sykes okay. I don't post enough about The Wanted, I should try to not be so biased towards Nathan Sykesss.
Okay so The Wanted's tour seems damn awesome through Tumblr omg. And I think they really make a big effort connecting with their fans. Like, they reply quite a bit a fans through Twitter, and they try to interact with them as much as they can during concerts, and they have a lot of meet&greets and they're very sweet and grateful to their fans. Like, they don't act like divas just because they're famous so they don't mind like, spending a lot of time thanking and talking to their fans and stuff like that.
Because like, at first when they just formed they didn't get much support from radio stations because they weren't from reality TV, which is where most British musicians come from I think. So they had to work very hard and go around everywhere doing tours at schools and stuff, to gain fans and more support. So they're very thankful to their fans for their success and stuff, and the fans actually sort of feel a personal connection to them? Yeah. I think, at least based on what the people on Tumblr are posting.
Soo, now that you've heard the inspiring story of The Wanted, you'll like them right! They're so much more than the usual manufactured, flat, one-sided boybands with mediocre vocals singing impersonal crafted-perfectly-to-be-chart-toppers songs and 'swoon-worthy' looks. They're actually extremely real and personal people with genuine talent okay.
Like, they actually write some of their songs themselves. Like, one third of their album. And they can actually sing well, and they can actually play instruments. Their beauty is totally not only skin-deep.
Aish now this sounds offensive to other boybands, but it's not supposed to be! Uhh, I sort of like JLS? Their songs are quite nice?
I'm gonna end off this post right now because real life just kicked in, and ugh it's bad stuff. Why does there have to be so much dramaaaaa.
TheWanted<3
Oh oh one last thing. If I didn't remember wrongly they were in Singapore earlier this year, for this super epic cool thing. Like, they had a showcase at Sentosa or something like that, and they also had this damn awesome competition where you basically write in and say why you're the biggest TheWanted fan. If you win, they go to your freaking house to perform for you and 9 other friends, and the radio station (I forgot if it was 913/987) brings refreshments and broadcasts the radio show from your living room.
Ugh that would've been so awesome, even though I didn't like them then. I didn't dislike them, I just didn't feel anything? Like, I kept thinking "Ooh this is super cool I think it'd be damn awesome for the person who wins. Even though I don't really like them." And I think the winner lives in Bukit Batok omgg.
Sigh.
what's left of me.
drowning in the silence, screaming.
QIANYU.
September 9th, 1997.
Nanyang Softball '13.
I like organization and spending time by myself and learning new things.
I also enjoy not talking about my feelings and yelling at people about fictional characters.
Cory Monteith
May 11th, 1982 - July 13th, 2013
no I will never be over this please don't even ask thank you.
