do you remember me, like I remember you?
Monday, 31 December 2012 // 03:23
I pray at night that our paths soon will cross-Enrique Iglesias, Somebody's Me
And what we had isn't lost
Okay here's my friend appreciation post! No angst.
So uh went out with Natalie FuYuan YanZhe a couple of days ago and we spent really long just laughing at my old blog posts hahahahah. And judging me for liking Chris Evans I still don't get how it's funny guys??
Anyway. So they've told me to blog again so we can laugh at me again two years down the road. But yeah it's actually a really good idea it'd actually made me think and reflect and maybe I'd feel something more than numbness WAIT NO ANGST.
And I just wanted to thank them for a bunch of other stuff they've done for me all these years. Yeah I don't really know how to write individual ones you guys can just go read my cringe-worthy thankyou posts from 2009 or something for those hahah.
But honestly guys, you've inspired me to be a better person I am not even kidding. All the stuff you've said about how I was really nice and really awesome seriously made me think about how I've changed these few years after we've graduated.
Idk I think I've basically become an awkward kid who doesn't really know how to carry a proper conversation apparently sarcasm is very annoying to some people oh well their loss. But more than that I think I've become much less, nice, for lack of a better word.
I won't say I've become more bitchy because wow, were we bitchy in P6 hahah how is that even possible we were pretty messed up. But I just, don't feel like I'm being that incredibly good friend that I'd like to think I was in primary school. To the people I wasn't secretly hating anyway.
Even to my friends in NY it's like I don't try as hard to be a great friend anymore so catching up with you guys really reminded me of who I was and who I should really try to be. Yeah so this is cliche as hell but yeah, thanks for inspiring me to be better.
It's just that, you guys remind me of a time where everything was just so much better. Yeah we were immature as hell and there was random drama all the 'who likes who likes who', but life was still so much simpler. We were so carefree and shit there were literally like two things to worry about at most.
Okay this is all leaving out all the secret bitching I was doing. At least in hindsight I could see it was just really immature thinking and it wasn't totally unfounded claims anyway. Now when I bitch about people I probably know right now it's immature but I still act that way sigh.
I just love how whenever we meet up it's like we've never left NYPS at all. We can just fall back into that easy conversation and insulting each other there are no awkward silences whatever. It's like we're still those carefree primary school kids. (Well with a lot more maturity thank god but you guys get the point right?)
Uh idek if this links, but yeah so in some way you guys keep me grounded. Like, this bunch of people away from all the shit of real life like all the drama we talk about is from a third person's point of view I don't have to keep having this nagging thought at the back of my mind like "Remember like two weeks ago this person did this and this." It's really liberating I really enjoy spending time with you guys.
Wow this post is more incoherent that the previous one I don't even know what my point is anymore. Basically I love you guys and we really need to make an effort to meet up more during the year because I miss you all so much ahhhh.
Yeah okay I don't get this post either I might attempt another one when it's not 3am.
New Year Resolution #2: Make an effort to meet up more.